Thursday, September 9, 2010

Life goes on!!!

I guess things happen for a reason, tears eventually fade and one day everything will be exactly how it's supposed to be. MOVING ON is a process and you have to PROMISE YOURSELF that you are really READY TO LET GO!
And a life support of family and friends helps too!!!

As Rascal Flatts says, "I'm Moving On"

I'd say that this year has been one of the hardest in my life thus far and I don't ever wish to be here again. I've been in the darkest of places for far too long and I've come to realize that just because one person doesn't love you like you want, it doesn't mean that at one point they didn't love you with everything they had. A year ago I would never have imagined I'd be where I am today. I've loved, I've lost, I've hurt, I've learned, I've forgiven and been forgiven and I've done many things I promised myself I'd never do, but the fact is, I did!

And you know what??? God is still there!! He as been holding me up this whole time and for that I am thankful.

 I've learned to actually DEAL with the pain, the loss and the regret instead of putting it in the back of the closet because "it is too hard to deal with." I know far too many people who brush everything under the rug and pretend everything is "okay." They become something they aren't and end up hiding there "skeletons in the closet" and with Halloween right around the corner, I don't think I can handle any ghosts!

I've learned that IT'S OKAY TO CRY when your sad or hurt and its ok to not be "perfect" all the time, because everyone has something going on in their lives and believe it or not if you just sit down and talk to someone around you, they possibly have gone through something very similar or are going through their own rough patch. I can definitely say that I have made more friends this year then ever before. All the while finding out who my real friends are. And I want to tell them all THANK YOU!!! You have helped me more than you will ever know, I am so thankful to have people there to lean on. That goes for my family too...I don't want to say that they haven't been there for me because they certainly have.

The most important words I've learned this year...


Believe it or not, it does! It goes by so fast too that's why you can't waste time on the ground, you have to push through the adversity so you come back standing stronger then ever before.
And that's exactly what I'm doing!

I'm moving on with my life because you can't live in the past and keep wishing things could have been different and there certainly is no Hot Tub Time Machine here. Haha!
So here I go living for the present and the future...I'm not promising that everyday is gonna be rainbows and butterflies, but it has to be brighter than yesterday.

Here is to...MOVIN' ON & holding true to the promise I have made with myself  because I can't share my life with anyone until I find myself  lost in my own happiness.